Wake up. The sun has already risen up but I’m still in bed. Today alarm was turned off to take a relaxed morning and still quite early because sleeping is not for mornings. Had a few days off to rest and today I’m ready to go to skiing. I miss skiing even if I haven’t skied for only some days. Taking morning coffee, making breakfast, geting ready cameras and deciding where to start today. It’s April but yeasterday was snowing. A lot of great snow is on the mountains so we must go!
We decided to start on Matterhorn Express and going to Trockener Steg (there is two points from the village where you can go up in the mountain and this is the one that is a bit farer from our home but straight to the top). App said that Trockener Steg is windy. There was some wind but still was possible to go to Italy and as we haven’t been together on Italy and it’s great and sunny day – we are going to Italy!
First slopes on Italy were with a lot of people, fresh snow was in pumps and I couldn’t stop thinking about that where the hell are we going… and why… We wanted to ski the longest run – about 20km long. In the middle the slope were closed and wasn’t ready for skiing.. A lot of fresh snow and probably big possibility for avalanches (in spring time and also when here is snowing a lot in one time, avalanches are often but service is great and no one is in danger).We went skiing off-piste right next to slope. He was skiing in front as he have more experience and I’m really new in powder skiing. The view was beautiful – from Italy side you can see wide view with mountains that are far away. There are some clouds but they are just giving even better view. You can just watch end enjoy. Love the view.
When I am skiing in powder (especially with my wide skies),I ‘m feeling like I’m water skiing. Just the same feeling. Snow was so deep, first time I went into that deep poweder with skies! Skiing, enjoying view and he is trying to ski to that slope where is closed. He is in front. I just now the way where he went and suddenly I’m in the snow. Face and head in the snow, don’t know about anything else but just got sceard a lot, got shock, panic and everything. First time I felt in powder. Don’t know what happened, don’t know what to do, he is away and probably even don’t know that I felt. Panic and scared. Got out of snow and saw that my skies are about 2 metres above me. Few minutes ago I saw guy go felt and lost his skies in powder and I couldn’t understand why it’s so hard for him to find them. Now I understood. I can see skies, I can see that I was there – I felt there – and it’s only about 2 metres. I almost can touch them. But I can’t. I’m trying to move but I’m falling deeper and deeper in snow and not moving at all. And I need to get my skies! I took my pole and trying to touch skies with that. It moved a bit and I’m hitting my ski and getting in my hands. Then the other one. Other one is on side so I need to move a bit to hit the ski down. And after three hits it is also in my hands. Still in shock and panic, canno’t understand anything, couldn’t even think if I can out my skies on on this snow but I just did it. I see the slope right next to me but I’m not sure if I can get there. “That is safe, I am right next to slope. I can see people and everyone. Everything is going to be okay.” I tryed to remind myself all the time even if I felt that I am shaking. Skied on slope and thought that I am not going back on off-piste.
Few metres skied on slope and understand that I need to stop and sit and get calm. And I need to find him or call him. I can see that he is where we were supposted to go. He is on the top on the hill and I am down. He is waving with pole and I’m waving back so he knows that everything is okay. He probably don’t know that I just felt and what emocional state am I but I need to meet him and he can see that I canno’t go up the hill. So he skied down. Everything was okay again, he helped and we are taking chairlift to go back from that place and ski where we wanted to ski.
We went to left side to Valtournenche. As I alreday said the slope was closed but with great frozen base and powder till knees. Again I can see this beautiful view and slope is quite flat so you need to ski where someone has already skied. We are skiing down, just I can feel how is this snow. It is soft. Really soft, smooth and dry. And everywhere I look around snow is shining. Like small, small brilliants that are shining in the sun. This is so beautiful.
We stop. To right side some skiers has skied there. I’m not sure about that so we are going still where is the slope. We need to walk over the flat part to ski again. And it looks so beautiful! Suddenly I can feel so much happiness in me. I can see my closest person, he is on skies, we are sking, we are skiing together, we are in Italy, we are exploring some new place with fresh snow, the weather is great, view is even better and I’m just in love with everyting!
We are skiing down on the slope and are going for some Italian pizza. I really like that one Italian pizzeria and there is cheap prices for pizzas in Italy! Everything is about 3 times cheaper. So why not pizza? Great day needs great pizza!
As everyone who goes from Zermatt to Cervinia needs to return before lifts are closed, we started to go back to Zermatt. Need to take 4 chairlifts from cafe to Italy – Switzerland border. With the last lift we are going into the cloud. As it got a bit cloudier, I thought that everywhere clouds and wind is comming. On the border you cannot see anything – visibility isn’t the best. Canno’t see few metres foward and also not the slope. I can feel that slope is icey. That’s it. But we need to move. And we are moving. Skiing down, getting out of clouds and there is sunny again – bright sunny day and nothing really shows about wind or not propered weather. Just few clouds exacly where we were.
Day is countinuing great and we are skiing down. Had new experiance today and just great day off. I’m really sceard of everthing. Not only on mountain. I’m really scared and that’s all in my mind. I need to fight with that – this is my biggest fight now. I need to do despite of my fears. I need to show myself that I can and there isn’t any problems to do anything. Anything is possible. Keeping fighting with my fears.
Do all the best,
Elina Ketty Nolle.